control

So many things this world are out of our control. Three days ago my uncial died, he diagnosed with leukemia a little under a year ago and was only 41 years old. He was strong and very health prior to the leukemia and when it was diagnosed we were all very sure he would make it, as a matter of fact he already had a donor to a bone marrow transplant. In a two month period my uncial health declined and he died. There are no words for this only bleeding hearts for a man so full of life that for it to be over makes no since. I can not fix this I cant start over and build all over and start new, so I don’t know how to deal. For problems there are solutions for a mistake made there is a lesson learned. I could put a lot shit on here about death being a part of life. But his life doe not deserve this ending. The whole thing is so scary because I see no cause and the effect is only pain.