I did almost get in a bar fight with some drunk girl.

The weekend came and went with no special excitement for me, I had a few drinks with some friends but there was no sparks.

Oh wait! 

I did almost get in a bar fight with some drunk girl. ok so me and two friends go to this bar. Since i little in what can be called a "little town" very close to a big city (los angles) you can say there's a crazy mix of people. This Restaurant/ Bar has the best margaritas i ever tasted and happy hours from 1 pm to 8pm daily so everyone goes there. So me and my two ( very stud, tomboyish,) friends order drinks and we see a table of ladies that set off the gaydar. I step out for a smoke and so does one of the ladies and i thought ok great so we talk she invites us to there table and so here a party. Then our new friends realize that neither of these ladies were my girlfriend and it was now clear why i was hitting on the nice woman that joined me for a smoke(lets call her cat). attitudes changed even though everyone assured me that cat was single and she herself acted very friendly and even gave me her number her friend (we shall call her asshole ) was very protective though they were not together i remained my normal nice self and thought nothing of it really because i didn't care, so asshole ask me if i thought" HER friend was cute" (so elementary) i replied "yes very" and gave a smile. when i smiled she grabbed the bottom of my cheeks' and chin and said "ohhh that's so cute" Since we were close in age and she had my cheeks in a vice grip I was really taken back by the gesture because it was so disrespectful and mean and.......... involving my face but i didn't get angry i just gave her a funny look. Later after smoking a few with Cat and having another peach margarita i was coming in from a smoke with Cat i put my arm up to hold the door and asshole was coming out at the same time somehow she says i hit her in the face while hold the door. As i was walking away from her drunk rants she called me a BITCH. Now that's not nice and i walked back to let her know that, At this point her ranting was causing a commotion and Cat was all over me telling me she sorry and please clam down in the same instance my best friend was explaining to her that name calling is unacceptable behavior. Everything calm down we had another margarita and went home.

oh how i want to blog

 I have noticed that not just me but my hole line up of people has slowly diclined in there fequnce of bloging. * in the back of my head i wonder if anyone even noticed the blogs i took out. Maybe once again thats what is is. Maybe people just since that im not in need of attention so much anymore and have gave my little letters a rest. Whatever it is, i miss having one or two comments. Its ok I have come a ways in this two months.

what weeks bring

Its up and down week for me and my family. Monday was my Troy’s memorial an that was and event. I got to feel his presence again. It was a 24 hour thing for me and my family Sunday afternoon leading into Sunday night was a bbq. Yes we gave my uncial a BBQ complete with his favorite game dominos his best friend came a other very close friends and family. The next day was his service and then another cook out my aunt Peaches gave, it was great and I knew he was there I could feel him. The very next day I had to go to court with my ex-employer, the assholes tried to appeal my grant for un-employment. There reason being I was delinquent and then fired from my job. NOT TRUE they could not produce anything but a piece of paper they clam to be my attendance record. It was a lie and I couldn’t believe they would lie like that. I wanted to smack the operations manger in the face and say you took a fucking oath. That would not have helped. I’m nervous about the outcome they don’t give it to you right there they mail you the judgment. "JUGEMENT" never liked that word. So after Monday and Tuesday then comes hump day and I have a sort of make up show to do so that put things to a rush combined with school put me in squeeze. In addition to that I have to share my computer with one other very internet active person. Thursday came and so did my check every dime went to bills and such. On Friday came a big surprise my mom got me my very own tiny computer, ITS GREAT with all that’s happen I have had lots of support and love. My best friend came from very far to see me and also attend the memorial. My aunt was very supportive through this. My mom assured me that no matter the outcome we would find away through. Then my mom saw my struggles with the computer and got me this baby. I am so blessed. This just reminds me that things can change so suddenly and I’m so grateful.

control

So many things this world are out of our control. Three days ago my uncial died, he diagnosed with leukemia a little under a year ago and was only 41 years old. He was strong and very health prior to the leukemia and when it was diagnosed we were all very sure he would make it, as a matter of fact he already had a donor to a bone marrow transplant. In a two month period my uncial health declined and he died. There are no words for this only bleeding hearts for a man so full of life that for it to be over makes no since. I can not fix this I cant start over and build all over and start new, so I don’t know how to deal. For problems there are solutions for a mistake made there is a lesson learned. I could put a lot shit on here about death being a part of life. But his life doe not deserve this ending. The whole thing is so scary because I see no cause and the effect is only pain.

Im A STUDENT

Im a STUDENT again yay I’m extremely happy…but not satisfied. my energy has returned and finally I am smiling more then often then not. I have came out of my blank state of depression retuned to active life…oh im so grateful…but paranoid thinking about how it could go wrong (old habits die hard) but the small bricks of this foundation are strong and even so I use that to keep my paranoid thoughts in check. I use this blog for motivation…how morbid that I woman of 24 have to depend on a blog to say on track. Thinking of that reminds me that I need to catch up on my fellow bloggers. I will be doing this today. If you guys haven’t take a look at my links to other peoples blogs, if the links on my page then there are people I read often and if you like my blog chances are you will love there’s…..what’s new I have returned to my much needed belly dancing. I WILL START DRINKING WATER AGAIN, so easily the little stuff gets pushed to the side and procrastination sneaks in. Ha, I caught it after two weeks floating around doing whatever the day required. I need to re-center myself but I still haven’t got a clear time to do this. As-a-matter of fact Im going to make time tonight. But first im going to complete and assignment (write a short bio on myself) I will most likely post it.



..i made this 3 days ago and so much has changed

I have missed you

Well I have been busy….its been a while since I been this damn busy. I also forgot how to manage.


The Lez B Us show is going great. (cant miss a advertising opportunity).

But back to my fight my foundation. But for right now Liz b us is becoming part of my life, I love doing the show but I’m concerned about how much energy im putting in it. it started as a hobby but deep in my heart I want it to be a business. I’m thinking about doing just that. im going to give it a few months and prepare a business plan then see how I feel.

My weight loss is coming along nicely even though I haven’t did a thing in about two weeks .

Things have finally been working out with school, I can officially change my status to student ... I’m so happy my major is psych for now I have get in the nursing program to make it my major but I’m satisfied because I want to be a psych nurse . With all this going on...

I defiantly need to re-center myself . But I feel like imp finally moving from that place I was in.

better news

And I have had a crazy week. Crashing classes was a discouraging process budget cuts are a real problem, There was about 30 crashers per class, it was a sad sight to see. And a sad thing for me. I was totally crazed and teachers kept saying “there will be openings after the 1st two months” like I want to play catch up after two months of missed work…..But no worries I am determined and I re-evaluated and came up with a plan. I had to change my major, but I love psychology, what’s in peoples head has always been a major concern of mine. I went through a different school, but nursing is not out of the picture I’m crashing my lab classes ( classes I cant take at the other school.) where there’s a will there is a way….





Better news

I started a blog talk show. Something I have always wanted to do… not exactly a blog show but maybe be on the radio, I like talking to people I love getting my point out and hearing other peoples. Conversation is an art and I do love it. I kind of want this blog to stay my own little space though. I thought about not even mentioning it on this page. But I guess I should promote everywhere. Plus there’s a lot of people on here that I would like to listen and maybe even call in. I’m building a blog just for the show. I will be inviting all of you very soon until then check it out on this page.

Heres some shows we have done we go live every tuesday and thursday 9 pm

 
 
 
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